Before leaving for today...

I just wanted to say that.... I miss Angelina sooooo much...

I think about her every day... and remember all the wonderful times we had. I love her so much!!! She is my little Angel.

I never thought it was going to be so hard to get over the fact that she had to leave and left more than 9 months ago. I just miss her and wish she was here or at least that I could she her and hug her and kiss her like I did for 9 months of her life.

I know she doesn't remember me anymore but I won't NEVER EVER forget her. None of us will.

Hopefully I will stop crying when I remember her some day soon :'(

TE EXTRAÑO MUCHO ANGIE!!! TE AMO BEBE!!

The last few days have been really hard for us. Last year on Christmas Angelina was here and we set our Christmas tree and decorations since early November because we didn't know how long she was going to stay with us and we wanted here to see all of the nice stuff, she loved to play with the tree decorations. This year while my mom and I set the tree, we remembered all of those sweet moments and could not help to get teary eyed.

Happy B-day Abuelita Mary & Brandon

It is almost a month after their birthday but we had such wonderful days, my cousin Brandon's birthday is on November 20th and my Abuelita Mary's birthday is the next day November 21st.

Brandon is now a teenager, he turned 13!! Unbelievable!! I am sooo old! I still remember when he was little and got mad all the time at everything... and he would only talk to me :')

I just hope the best for him in the future... he is still very quiet but a really nice boy... and SO HANDSOME!

He lost his dad (my dear uncle Byron) when he was 6 years old. And his mom has not been the best, so we try to give him all the love and care he probably doesn't get at home.

Here is a picture of Brandon with his b-day cake, also in the pic my cousin Byron (Brandon's older brother) I love them SOOOO MUCH!!!

Also we cellebrated my grandma's birthday... to be honest I am not sure how old she is so... We just gave her lots of love and love and love! and as usual my mom bought her flowers... because she LOVES flowers and a delicious cake!

Here's a pic of her and all of her grandchildren... well the ones living and Guate.

We sang in the karaoke both days and had a blast! We love that thing.

I love my family to death, I spend most of my time with them and it's just priceless.

Such a lousy blogger

I am still trying to catch up... it seems like I am taking this vacation time very seriously because in the last week I have been waking up around 10 am!!! Seriously that is a record for me! Usually the latest I wake up its around 8 am but my mom has been really good to us and just lets us sleep as much a we want... well after 10 seems to be more than enough, then she just comes around the room "talking to herself" saying all the things and chores that need to be done.
As every vacation of my life... or better said... all my life! we are visiting grandma almost every day, I think my mom does go every day, if she doesn't we will probably get a phone call asking if we are showing up... if not we get around 3 or 4 call during the day just to check out or just gossiping! ha!
I'm afraid I'm going to get just too lazy to wake up when I have to go back to school :S
I know I should use that time to exercise or do something productive!!!
Anyway... this Christmas time is going fine... we haven't done much of shopping but I hope I get some new clothes! I am waring rags! Its just sad! I hate the fact that my sister won't even borrow me a blouse! >:( Is not as if I am going to stretch it out or anything I am smaller than her! That always makes me mad because I borrow my clothes to her and never say a thing about it but if I even dare to try one of her blouses she goes crazy and gives me dirty looks!!!

First job...NOT

Well as I said in my last post, I started looking for a job.... like almost a month ago, and I did actually send my resume to 6 different places, 3 of them didn't work because everytime I e-mailed it, it just kept coming back, so I just gave up with them... the other 3, one of them didn't call back but I did have 2 calls back from the other places, (they were all call centers by the way).
I sent my resume after giving it a lot of thought and because as usual I was very busy. Everything seem to be doing very well, with those two they were actually the ones I thought were the best and the most likely to hire me. My english seems to be good enough for them, my english interviews went really well and they seemed interested in meeting me and to be honest I had practiced in my mind many times before my speech. HA!
At the end the schedules were just not what I was looking for, just too many hours and though I will have much more free time next year doesn't mean that I can neglect my studies. I have had a couple of bumps in the road to becoming a dr. but neither of them has stop me and nothing else will.
My mom and I decided we should leave the job thing for later on in the year 'cause we might be having a vacation trip in a few weeks! yeiiii I am really looking forward to go to the beach!! white sand! the sea.. the sun...(sigh) :)

quest for my first job

since i will have free time next year I am trying to find a job to help out my family and to finally become a little more independent from my mom and dad... i feel like this is a must for my right now because i failed and that means that not only i failed myself but i failed to my parents, to my family and they are the most important thing in the world to me,
So in a way to redime myself and to be finally able to buy some stuff for me without asking my dad for money will be a tremendous step for me.
This year has been rough on my family and me starting to work could be a huge help for all of us, so i will do my best to find something.
I am trying at call centers because they are the new thing in Guatemala, there are lots of them and they dont ask for much to hire people, i think my english is not bad so im giving it a try. If I make it i will be earning aroun Q.4000 a month and believe me that its waayyy more than I ever expected to have in my hands!
Wish me luck if you are reading this and if you can leave a comment about my english it will be truly appreciated!

Belated Halloween

I know it is kind of late and I didnt even do anything to cellebrate it because I had an exam two days later.... but Angi did send us some pictures of her babies Andrea and Angelina in their halloween costumes and I just have to share them.

This was Angelina's first halloween in the US, and from the pictures I can see she was having fun + she was looking sooo pretty in her pumpking costume. I wish I was in TN with her... I miss her so much!

Now on to the pics

Yes Andrea we are the cutest pumpkins ever!

It seems like Angelina enjoyed her candy!

little miss Andrea! congratulations on your 2nd birthday sweet baby!

On to the fun! Trick or treating!

Finally I'm Free

yes! finally I am off school! This has been like "the year" for me. Lots of things happened... i learned a lot but it seems like though there is a ton of new information in my head, it was not enough :(
Due to some mistakes a made that at that time didn't seem as important as they look to me NOW, I won't be able to go ahead with my career and will be losing a year!
That TRULY makes me sad, I know I am a smart person but it seems like I didnt make the big effort I should have. I am getting delayed for 2 them subjects because I needed 2 more points at the damn final exams!
I still can't believe I change 2 or 3 or my final answers before giving the answers to the dr. I they were the right ones!!! arggg! I always do that! I pretty much of the times screw it up!
NOTE TO SELF(AND TO ANYBODY ELSE READING THIS): DONT YOU EVER CHANGE YOUR FINAL ANSWERS! THE FIRST THING ON YOUR MIND IS MOST PART OF THE TIME THE RIGHT ANSWER!

Now I know that! All of that information was somewhere in my head but sometimes I am just ssooooo nervious that I just block it! It is frustrating and I know it happens to a lot of people but in the circumstance I am, med school and the university itself, just doesnt allow me to deal with this! My university just wont help you a little tiny bit even if you are 0.10pts away from the winning grade!

Well... I know I need to get over with this.. I am planning to star working FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE! and learning new lenguages... like.. italian, english and portuguese maybe? haha

And I would like to add this since it really means a lot to me and I just can't say it enough... Thank you God for the loving and understanding parents I have!! I love them sooo much!
im adding this picture of myself... to remind me of how i look now, a fresh 20 year all.... and like my sister says... I'll never be as young and pretty as we are now.